Thursday, May 07, 2009

Slipery slope

I think breast feeding is almost over. Ever since being sick, I haven't been able to take care of myself enough to rebound. I haven't been able to eat enough, stay hydrated well enough and nurse more often. I've noticed that the necessary supplementing is starting to increase in frequency, from twice a day to three or four and the nursing sessions are decreasing to only a few times a day.

At this moment in time, I feel alright about it only because I need to take care of me. I'm sure down the road in a bit, I will feel pretty damn guilty that I wasn't able to keep it going. But for now, my head hurts, my body is drained and my brain is fried. There are other things I need to do to take care of myself so I can take care of both kids, not just one.


Kelly said...

If you need it to be over, that is okay! If you need to keep doing a couple of nursings a day, that is more than okay, too! Breastfeeding is one of those things that is not black and white. I figure it is because it is not only of great nutritional value, but it is also of huge emotional value as well.

Whatever you decide to do will be the right thing, and taking care of yourself is mandatory because you have to be well to take care of those precious boys! You know all that, though...I'm just backing you up :)

Anonymous said...

You have to take care of you so you can take care of your boys. It'll be best for everyone in the long run. No guilt needed. You are doing a great job!