Tuesday, January 24, 2006

These are my last days of being fat. Thank God.
It was fun while it lasted, but I'm ready to get back into shape. I feel like a whale, especially when trying to flip in bed in the middle of the night. I also can't believe that I get out of breath so much. I mean, I get out of breath just having a conversation on the phone. Ridiculous.

My nutrition hasn't been perfect by any means durring pregnancy. Which is so backwards. I'm supposed to be eatting the heathiest at this time. Pre-preg, I counted calories, had my carbs, protein & fats balanced, didn't eat sugar...I was called the nutrition nazi at the gym. I was really that strict & disciplined. Now, I've had more fast food than I ever thought I would eat & I'm pretty sure I have some kind of chocolate (or sugar) on a daily basis. Portion controll is not in my vocabulary right now either. I'm really surprised that I haven't gained 70-100 lbs.

I've cried after seeing my butt in the mirror before. I glanced at the full length mirror in our bathroom as I was on my way to bed. I sighed & then started to cry. I remember a comment one of the members of the gym made when I said that I was pregnant. "Well, there goes the body". I was so offended I almost said a few choice words. But it's true. I have a double chin now. A freakin double chin. I noticed it yesterday while brushing my teeth.

I'm tired of seeing more commercials for weight loss supplements, most of them targeted specifically to postnatal weight loss & women. I'm also tired of reading stories about women who were back to their pre pregnancy shape 3 weeks after delivery. How crazy is that! I hoping that I'll be there in 3-6 months, not weeks!

I have no clue why I'm even worried about this. As a personal trainer, I know exactly what I need to do. I've trained countless postnatal women. I think it's just a strange feeling to be on the other side, knowing what I know. I better shut up & keep enjoying the Frosties & 7-layer burritos that Bill brings home for me because once Logan is born, it's back to nutrition nazi status.


Corinne said...

I totally understand, except... i was never in that great of shape before the pregnancy. I tried... in fact, i was on Weight Watchers and had actually done pretty well with them until I got pregnant. I wish I'd started out at a lower weight because I feel like I've just ballooned up. We'll get it off... maybe you can help me after we have these kids... :)

Kristin said...

Oh, it's on! Getting to the goal is a lot more fun when you have someone else doing it with you :)