Today is the big day.
When Bill gets home from work we'll have some grilled steaks & shrimp, chocolate cupcakes & beer. My mouth is watering just typing it out. Our two week long celebration will go through a lull after today, until one of my sisters & her boyfriend come out for a visit this weekend (beginning of next week). We'll have a babysitter for Logan & Bill & I will go out for a great birthday dinner. I love our birthday dinners. There's always a lot of good food & lots of fun. Then there will be another lull until Bill's birthday a few days after that.
It's kind of funny how our extended celebrations have changed over the years. We once got hotel rooms & threw big parties. We partied excessively & had so much fun. There were always crazy stories to tell the day after. Not so much anymore. Life changes, we change, things are different. Good, but different.
I think I feel older because I'm wiser. I've packed in quite a bit of experience in the last 12 months. So, it's not like I physically feel older, but definitely mentally. I feel like I've had a growth spurt, just like Logan had when he was smaller. I don't feel like the same woman (or Mom, for that matter) that I was last year. Quite honestly, I almost feel like this is my first birthday.
Last year was the year our marriage really started. The year our new life started. It's taken all of that year to really figure things out. To get our bearings straight. This birthday, I feel like a better person (certainly not perfect, but better). The only word to describe how I feel about all of this is "wow". Just wow.