Friday, November 16, 2007

And waiting...
No cycle, no definitive answer. This is a true test of patience. It's hard to not over-analyze my physical feeling or recognize that anxiety may be the result of some symptoms. Last night while at dinner, I was starving. I ate my chicken & rice burrito faster than the speed of light. The restaurant we went to was less than stellar & the burrito tasted like a dog food burrito. That didn't stop me from inhaling it. And I was the only one who passed up the two free margaritas that came with dinner.

When I got home, I was feeling kind of gross. I had been tired all day long but after dinner I was starting to feel "off". It was the same familiar feeling of the beginning stages of HG. I wasn't yet sick enough to be in the bathroom, but I had a clammy kind of feeling. It felt like my blood was running ice cold & my skin was hot. The contrast in temperature that makes you feel like you're getting the flu, but not just yet. The feeling lessened in the morning when I woke up, but returned this afternoon. It has a waxing & waning pattern. Deja vu.

This seriously makes me wonder if I had a false negative. After Logan & I left our friends at playtime this morning, I went to the store to get a couple more tests. Bill works late tonight, so I'll take it tomorrow morning. In the mean time, I've looked at my insurance (that doesn't have maternity coverage) to see what I need to do to get it. If I am pregnant, the minute I get a positive test, I'll be on the phone getting that set up & in ASAP to get a prescription for zofran so I don't end up suffering for weeks like the last pregnancy.

There's a plan of action in place, just in case...

3 comments:

Dawn B said...

patiently waiting to hear the results!!! =) I hope you're feeling okay!

Juggle Jane said...

I am on pins and needles waiting to hear....

Liz said...

OMG!

pins and needles here, too.

i know you've probably gotten an earful of folks saying, "well, everything happens for a reason." but really, whatever the outcome, i'm confident that you and bill (and baby logan) will make good decisions that are best for your family.

it's all so exciting and terrifying all at once. i know this so well, after all, i was JUST in this same position not so long ago.

again, love and prayers for y'all from brooklyn.

(also, i now would very much like to eat a taco.)