As a stay at home mom, I can't stop thinking about finances.
Since deciding that staying at home was the best for Logan, we've made a lot of sacrifices to make it happen. We have one car. We get concerned about the skyrocketing prices of gas. We don't go out & we rarely eat out. We choose to do outdoor activities, not only because they are fun & it gets us moving & active, but it's cheap. We don't travel & I'm hoping that Bill gets a bonus at the end of the month so Logan & I can go to Portland to visit my sisters. I don't remember the last time I actually bought clothes (real, not maternity) for myself & we just don't spend money unless it's for the mortgage & utilities.

Now, we haven't reached the point of living on the starving student/top ramen diet yet. But deep in the back of my head, it's a big fear. What if this won't work out? What if I have to go back to work? There is no humanly possible way that I could go back to what I was doing before. I would never see Logan again. He would be raised by child care providers & I would probably die from a broken, guilty heart.

So for the last few months I've been brainstorming on ways to increase our income & stay home if it comes down to that. Just to be prepared. I've thought about making some kind of organic baked good to sell at the farmers market. Logan & I could hang out on the weekend & I'm sure his cuteness would bring in a few bucks. I've thought about consulting with chiropractic offices to increase business & retain current patients. I've thought about training a few people again, but I'm not quite sure how that would workout with Logan. I've thought about making the "six pack abs" nutrition plan into a CD kind of thing, but I'm not that computer savvy. Then I thought about writing a Mommy & Baby workout book. Include the nutrition plan, a workout that moms can do with their babies (that can start when the baby is 6 weeks old rather than 4 months like other workouts) & then also include the baby workouts that Logan does. I have never seen a workout routine, let alone a book for infant workouts. So that might be a good idea.

I have all of these ideas in my head, keeping them filed away, just in case. It's kind of a scary thought, but it's life. It never goes as planned. I do this thinking that I'll be able to sleep at night knowing that I have a plan B, C, or even plan X. I don't want to go work for someone else again, but I guess if all else fails, there's always Starbucks. At least I would get free coffee.